The universe is full of energy. When we speak we're throwing energy out of us. More than our actions it's the words that we speak have more energy. That energy remains within the universe. It's all around us. I've always been asked by people to repeat my goals and aims to myself loudly over and over again and I wondered why. I have that figured out now to an extent. In the alchemist by Paulo Coelho there's a quote which says that when you want something bad enough the whole universe conspires for you to get it. It's so true and I totally agree and relate to that.
The point being when we wish badly for people, the negative energy that we throw out remains in the universe. It could work against you or someone that you love. There are a lot of people that give out negative vibes. I cannot stand being near them. I don't hate them or anything of the sort. Avoiding them is the answer. Each one of us have certain vibes (negative, positive and neutral)...When we like certain people, it's because their vibes and energies mix with ours.
When we say things like "Oh! We just 'clicked'!" It's because that other person's energies are complimenting yours. There are certain individuals that each one of us either instantly like or dislike. It's our vibes...that are clashing or combining
It's funny and you might wonder why I'm writing about energies and vibes so much?!...I don't know!....It's just random...but everyone person that I like has positive energies...and I keep thinking to myself about it. It's not necessary that when someone gives out negative energies they show and talk negatively. They could be absolutely normal people but...our bodies and mind are so intune to recognising who's good for us and who's not...we just need to take the hints. (instincts may be?)
The best part about the energies...They create a protective aura around you. They fight for you, help you get out of a situation and at times they help you get into a situation.
There are certain people that you're just mean't to be with. No matter how hard you try to get away from them, your energies have fallen in love faster or sooner than your mind. This can stand true for any kind of relationship...be it 2 friends, children, adults, dogs.....Anything that has a mere existance...
The magnetism between 2 particular individuals' energies could be so strong that nothing in the world can affect their togetherness.
It just makes sense for situations for which you don't know how or why they happened....
Love love and love again! :)
P.S:
{I write as if I'm a Pro at all this....but ye, I know I'm not...it's a path to discovering something and seeing if there are people who think in the same way that I do. }
Comments on this one are welcome. I might be wrong about a certain things that I've written..it's more on the spiritual side...but ye...loll..lets hear ya!
Thursday, May 3, 2007
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Change
Change is the only constant thing in life. A cliche but true. I'm constantly changing and loving it. I quit smoking. It feels good and funny. Feel like I lost my best friend!
Don't want to go on about how it feels to have left smoking. I haven't done it for health reasons. I quit smoking to test my will power and to know that I control myself and there is absolutely nothing or anyone in this world that I can't do without. The positive and the good thing is I feel in complete control. As I mentioned in my previous post that One HAS to control his/her emotions and not the other way round...there you go, here's the proof. You might say "whats smoking got to do with emotions? ", especially if you're a non-smoker. It has everything to do with emotions. When you smoke for a long time, a cigarette is your only friend, hope...who is with you when you're sad, lonely, upset, hungry, partying, happy, shopping, chilling etc...you get my point ye?
If I can stay without smoking...something that I loved...I can stay without anything or anyone.
Jaka: Thanks for the sacrifice baby, you're the best! ( I know you know that)
Catharsis:a sudden emotional breakdown or climax that constitutes overwhelming feelings of great pity, sorrow, laughter or any extreme change in emotion that results in the renewal, restoration and revitalization for living.
Something that happened today without a warning. It wasn't as drastic though. It was good...I got rid of some clothes, pictures and some clutter that was in my mind and my room. It's a clean feeling. I feel like I have 'organised' my mind and life....anyone laughing? Hope not because I'm quite serious. A sudden CLARITY of certain thoughts and feelings!
There are certain tendencies that a human mind has. (No, I'm not a wanna-be Freud)
One of them is blowing up a person's image in your mind. When you like someone and don't talk to that person enough, you tend to imagine the things that you don't know in a super-positive way. You create unreal characteristics of that real person. Things that you wish he/she had but not really has them. (Sorry if I have lost you here but I'm going to carry on) I have done that before and not realised that I did that for a LONG time. Today, before it was too late...it hit me...what or how much do I really know about this person that I thought I was crazy about?...Nothing really...it's the most superficial relationship/friendship that I have!...I was closer to my maids in India than him (I'm not putting down my maids, mind you, just a random comparison) but yea, coming back to the point, I'm not sure if my feelings for this particular person are for what he is or for what I imagine him to be.
This is not to say that I don't like him. He's a nice guy and we've had our 'moments' ...I like him for the way he is with me when he is with me but it ends there. It's definitely not love. Infatuation, yes definitely. (he's hot)
I'm writing this because this is one of the things that I'm CLEAR about. I won't be going up to him and telling him this or anyone of my friends...It's about me. How I think now. There is a feeling of indifference, which is not a very good thing i reckon...but thats how it is. That's what life is all about eventually.... Change. People change, things change, feelings change. I might change again though... I'm an extremist as you might have guessed by now. I change like it's no one's business and I love it.
I don't know if i have made sense here to ANYONE...loll...i hope i did..but do i really care?...I'm not too sure.
Peter and Jaka: (Assuming that you both have read this)
I really quit smoking for my will power and to not let anything control me. The wish got me through the first week but it's not about the wish anymore. I don't care if it comes true or not and I don't expect it to come true because I quit smoking. (thats the biggest random bullshit that I've ever said to myself) loll..but lets see whats in store for me!
Peter, you'll never know the wish...loll..not that anyone knows, but yea...I know you're dyinggg to know! hahaha...(yea, I'm a sadist)
Lots of love to everyone reading this! (Yes, I'm happy and fulllllllll of LOVE).......... :)
Don't want to go on about how it feels to have left smoking. I haven't done it for health reasons. I quit smoking to test my will power and to know that I control myself and there is absolutely nothing or anyone in this world that I can't do without. The positive and the good thing is I feel in complete control. As I mentioned in my previous post that One HAS to control his/her emotions and not the other way round...there you go, here's the proof. You might say "whats smoking got to do with emotions? ", especially if you're a non-smoker. It has everything to do with emotions. When you smoke for a long time, a cigarette is your only friend, hope...who is with you when you're sad, lonely, upset, hungry, partying, happy, shopping, chilling etc...you get my point ye?
If I can stay without smoking...something that I loved...I can stay without anything or anyone.
Jaka: Thanks for the sacrifice baby, you're the best! ( I know you know that)
Catharsis:a sudden emotional breakdown or climax that constitutes overwhelming feelings of great pity, sorrow, laughter or any extreme change in emotion that results in the renewal, restoration and revitalization for living.
Something that happened today without a warning. It wasn't as drastic though. It was good...I got rid of some clothes, pictures and some clutter that was in my mind and my room. It's a clean feeling. I feel like I have 'organised' my mind and life....anyone laughing? Hope not because I'm quite serious. A sudden CLARITY of certain thoughts and feelings!
There are certain tendencies that a human mind has. (No, I'm not a wanna-be Freud)
One of them is blowing up a person's image in your mind. When you like someone and don't talk to that person enough, you tend to imagine the things that you don't know in a super-positive way. You create unreal characteristics of that real person. Things that you wish he/she had but not really has them. (Sorry if I have lost you here but I'm going to carry on) I have done that before and not realised that I did that for a LONG time. Today, before it was too late...it hit me...what or how much do I really know about this person that I thought I was crazy about?...Nothing really...it's the most superficial relationship/friendship that I have!...I was closer to my maids in India than him (I'm not putting down my maids, mind you, just a random comparison) but yea, coming back to the point, I'm not sure if my feelings for this particular person are for what he is or for what I imagine him to be.
This is not to say that I don't like him. He's a nice guy and we've had our 'moments' ...I like him for the way he is with me when he is with me but it ends there. It's definitely not love. Infatuation, yes definitely. (he's hot)
I'm writing this because this is one of the things that I'm CLEAR about. I won't be going up to him and telling him this or anyone of my friends...It's about me. How I think now. There is a feeling of indifference, which is not a very good thing i reckon...but thats how it is. That's what life is all about eventually.... Change. People change, things change, feelings change. I might change again though... I'm an extremist as you might have guessed by now. I change like it's no one's business and I love it.
I don't know if i have made sense here to ANYONE...loll...i hope i did..but do i really care?...I'm not too sure.
Peter and Jaka: (Assuming that you both have read this)
I really quit smoking for my will power and to not let anything control me. The wish got me through the first week but it's not about the wish anymore. I don't care if it comes true or not and I don't expect it to come true because I quit smoking. (thats the biggest random bullshit that I've ever said to myself) loll..but lets see whats in store for me!
Peter, you'll never know the wish...loll..not that anyone knows, but yea...I know you're dyinggg to know! hahaha...(yea, I'm a sadist)
Lots of love to everyone reading this! (Yes, I'm happy and fulllllllll of LOVE).......... :)
Saturday, March 17, 2007
:))) ??
It's been so long since I've dated and liked someone that I've forgotten how it feels......words are not enough to express what I'm going through. Is it love? infatuation? I'm smiling 24/7..I have ALL the patience in the world for things to happen...unlike my usual If-it-doesn't-happen-NOW-it-never-will self. I love everything...no hard feelings towards anything or anyone..life just seems sooo beautiful and nice.. !! This is how it's suppose to be i guess....cuz when i've had relationships in the past I always felt like time was my enemy.. I guess somewhere in my mind i knew that it was going to end and that i wanted to spend as much time as possible with the person...
Right now, that's the last thing on my mind...I cherish each moment spent together..I don't care about anything except for the fact that we're together even if there are 5 other people with us....na, it's not that simple...we're not dating or anything..it's far too complicated than that..but what i'm going through is just amazing!....i din't know anyone could feel this way... Last night was probably the best night ever...no you perverts, nothing like that happened...but HE bought me a rose...and it meant a lot cuz he never buys or has bought flowers for anyone..we spent about 5 hours together...no one else...just talking and having fun...I know that he likes me...there's something about the way he looks at me...my friends noticed it as well..
Am i in love?
Is this going anywhere?
I don't know answers to these questions...and i don't think i want to know...
All i know is that this is the best feeling in the world..and nothing can beat this...if we're mean't to be together, we will be...if not, doesn't matter.
I'm not in a rush...& as i said before...I feel like I have ALL the time.....................!!
Right now, that's the last thing on my mind...I cherish each moment spent together..I don't care about anything except for the fact that we're together even if there are 5 other people with us....na, it's not that simple...we're not dating or anything..it's far too complicated than that..but what i'm going through is just amazing!....i din't know anyone could feel this way... Last night was probably the best night ever...no you perverts, nothing like that happened...but HE bought me a rose...and it meant a lot cuz he never buys or has bought flowers for anyone..we spent about 5 hours together...no one else...just talking and having fun...I know that he likes me...there's something about the way he looks at me...my friends noticed it as well..
Am i in love?
Is this going anywhere?
I don't know answers to these questions...and i don't think i want to know...
All i know is that this is the best feeling in the world..and nothing can beat this...if we're mean't to be together, we will be...if not, doesn't matter.
I'm not in a rush...& as i said before...I feel like I have ALL the time.....................!!
Monday, March 12, 2007
Florence/ What are friends for??
Yes! Florence is done with! The sad thing is we disn't go to Pisa! :(((( Well, i guess i shouldn't cry over stupid things!...Anyway...Florence was the most amazing place in Italy that I've been to....after Venice...hehe... We reached the hotel in the evening after a day of walking around and conferences....Went out to a cozy Italian restaurant...(t'was 4 of us, 2 girls and 2 guys)...had a niceee dinner and some amazing Italian wine...Got ready, and went out partying that night!! yes! i did... :P The next day...was all site seeing etc....K i want to get done with this bit fasssst as I GOT TO write about the funny incident...Ok! So here's a friend of mine who hasn't had some ass for 6 months or so...so she's DYING to get some...and we have a common friend who is always boasting about how great a sex-god he is and claiming to have had the best girls all over him....! So, we're like Perfect! this is all she needs!....hehe...ok, so here goes...
0. He was small (very)
1. He was Fast
2. He dint know how and where to touch
3. He jus removed her skirt and tried to stick it in! (She screamed & stopped him)
4. He told her that he didn't 'feel' anything (whatever that means)
5. He said he's too tired
6. He said he was thinking of his ex-girlfriend
7. He says "suck me now" ( who the f*** says that????)
8. None of them came....& my friend goes 'ok! I'm sleeping!'
9. They went off to sleep!!!!!!!!!!
hahahahaha...
But because of this whole stupid incident, i was woken up early in the morning at 10:00 am on a saturday and had to listen to each detail about how baaaaad it was...hehe...after all, what are friends for, eh?
Well, we learn't our lesson...SOME men are soooo full of shit! haha...and yea some cause, i do believe that there are some good & nice men in this world...hehe...I'm not one of the single women who hate men and want them but yet put them down..(MALE Bashers)...I absolutely love men and yea ofcourse someone of you out there is made for me (ahh....lucky u!)...hehe...kidding.
Yep, so that was it...we got back to Milan on sunday at 11:00pm! Was hectic....we didn't know that one day we'd be calling Milan, 'home'!! Again I repeat...I love life...
Oh! I'm reading Salman Rushdie's- 'Shalimar the clown' right now...it's got some amazing phrases that i loved... ill include them in my next 'blog'! :) they're really nice...nothing extraordinary but i relate to them soooo much! Reading such things at times makes life so much more easy to handle...You know, that you're not the only one who thinks in a certain way....dunno if you get what i mean but then again I told u my blog was going to be RANDOM! ..! :)
0. He was small (very)
1. He was Fast
2. He dint know how and where to touch
3. He jus removed her skirt and tried to stick it in! (She screamed & stopped him)
4. He told her that he didn't 'feel' anything (whatever that means)
5. He said he's too tired
6. He said he was thinking of his ex-girlfriend
7. He says "suck me now" ( who the f*** says that????)
8. None of them came....& my friend goes 'ok! I'm sleeping!'
9. They went off to sleep!!!!!!!!!!
hahahahaha...
But because of this whole stupid incident, i was woken up early in the morning at 10:00 am on a saturday and had to listen to each detail about how baaaaad it was...hehe...after all, what are friends for, eh?
Well, we learn't our lesson...SOME men are soooo full of shit! haha...and yea some cause, i do believe that there are some good & nice men in this world...hehe...I'm not one of the single women who hate men and want them but yet put them down..(MALE Bashers)...I absolutely love men and yea ofcourse someone of you out there is made for me (ahh....lucky u!)...hehe...kidding.
Yep, so that was it...we got back to Milan on sunday at 11:00pm! Was hectic....we didn't know that one day we'd be calling Milan, 'home'!! Again I repeat...I love life...
Oh! I'm reading Salman Rushdie's- 'Shalimar the clown' right now...it's got some amazing phrases that i loved... ill include them in my next 'blog'! :) they're really nice...nothing extraordinary but i relate to them soooo much! Reading such things at times makes life so much more easy to handle...You know, that you're not the only one who thinks in a certain way....dunno if you get what i mean but then again I told u my blog was going to be RANDOM! ..! :)
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
Being HAPPY! :D
Life's getting hectic by the minute now!! I've become a pro at multi-tasking these days.. if i sit and think about the things that i do on any given day...man!...not easy...hehe..(and I'm not even working right now!) Anyway, I'm reallllllllly happy right now cuz I passed an exam that i thought i was definitely going to fail!! hehe...ofcourse i treated myself...went shopping!! :) ( I won't start about how therapeutic shopping is, but it really is! )
Exams, travel (to florence, pisa, rome and Switzerland), wrapping up in Milan, packing, dealing with the Swiss insurance and looking for a Job...all this in 8 days!! Not bad eh? Ofcourse the looking-for-a-job bit will go on until i graduate but yea, it's a task!
I can't wait to go to these places!...When in florence, we're all going to rent bikes and go to a winery on the outskirts of florence and do some wine tasting...it's going to be amazing!
Pisa: When i was a kid, my mum had subscribed to these world books that i would get each month. One of the books was called "Around the World". The only thing i was fascinated with was the "Leaning Tower of Pisa" ...I can't believe that I'm actually going to see it now!
I know I sound like a kid who's just been given a box full of candies...but that's really my state of mind right now! :D
As usual, I'll start my random blabbering : I hate like absolutely HATE depressed individuals. I avoid being near such people and I'm allergic to being depressed! I'm a very happy person by nature ( my friends would confirm that) and I'm rarely upset about things. I don't understand why people need to pity themselves or others and cry over things for too long. It's NOT that i've never been upset/depressed(which i guess is too strong a word) , it's a part of life but 'get over it'! There is nothing in this world that is worth getting your mood/spirits down!...If it does, cry over it for sometime and MOVE on..! It all comes down to being practical and realistic. I believe in controlling my emotions and not letting my emotions control me!...it took time for me to do that but nothing beats the feeling of being happy, content and in control of things..
Well, atleast that's how I am...so I'd rather stay away from people who believe the contrary..
I may be a tad too fussy...but thats what life's about I guess...Making the right choices! :)
Exams, travel (to florence, pisa, rome and Switzerland), wrapping up in Milan, packing, dealing with the Swiss insurance and looking for a Job...all this in 8 days!! Not bad eh? Ofcourse the looking-for-a-job bit will go on until i graduate but yea, it's a task!
I can't wait to go to these places!...When in florence, we're all going to rent bikes and go to a winery on the outskirts of florence and do some wine tasting...it's going to be amazing!
Pisa: When i was a kid, my mum had subscribed to these world books that i would get each month. One of the books was called "Around the World". The only thing i was fascinated with was the "Leaning Tower of Pisa" ...I can't believe that I'm actually going to see it now!
I know I sound like a kid who's just been given a box full of candies...but that's really my state of mind right now! :D
As usual, I'll start my random blabbering : I hate like absolutely HATE depressed individuals. I avoid being near such people and I'm allergic to being depressed! I'm a very happy person by nature ( my friends would confirm that) and I'm rarely upset about things. I don't understand why people need to pity themselves or others and cry over things for too long. It's NOT that i've never been upset/depressed(which i guess is too strong a word) , it's a part of life but 'get over it'! There is nothing in this world that is worth getting your mood/spirits down!...If it does, cry over it for sometime and MOVE on..! It all comes down to being practical and realistic. I believe in controlling my emotions and not letting my emotions control me!...it took time for me to do that but nothing beats the feeling of being happy, content and in control of things..
Well, atleast that's how I am...so I'd rather stay away from people who believe the contrary..
I may be a tad too fussy...but thats what life's about I guess...Making the right choices! :)
Sunday, March 4, 2007
Sunday/Men
Perfect sunday! :) Got up late, went grocery shopping, did my laundry, cleaned my house, one of my friends came over....we gossiped like it's no ones business....Chilled...went out for dinner & I'm home..now..(Swingers anyone? It's an awesome movie..especially if you're down & looking for a good laugh)
K, I had a conversation with a friend of mine the other day...a pretty long one at that cause he just wouldn't understand why someone would WANT to be single?! The point is that it's not that I want to be single but when i AM single i am not desperately looking for a man...yes, a man..not a boy...hehe..anyway, so that's the point!...it's not rocket science is it? but my stubborn headed friend wouldn't just get it! K, so I'm single and have been single for the last one year. No, I'm not looking for anyone right now. I'm pursuing my masters right now we travel a lot!...Don't want to think about anything other than my studies right now..
My last relationship lasted for two and a half years. Nice guy but too possesive and insecure. That is not happening again!..It was frustrating cuz HE was the one who was insecure and I was the one suffering! Nope, never doing ANYTHING for a guy because of his idiotic nature.
Hmmm, no more sob stories from my end now!....Love my life and am living it to the fullest!
P.S: Going to Florence this coming weekend for 3 days!
K, I had a conversation with a friend of mine the other day...a pretty long one at that cause he just wouldn't understand why someone would WANT to be single?! The point is that it's not that I want to be single but when i AM single i am not desperately looking for a man...yes, a man..not a boy...hehe..anyway, so that's the point!...it's not rocket science is it? but my stubborn headed friend wouldn't just get it! K, so I'm single and have been single for the last one year. No, I'm not looking for anyone right now. I'm pursuing my masters right now we travel a lot!...Don't want to think about anything other than my studies right now..
My last relationship lasted for two and a half years. Nice guy but too possesive and insecure. That is not happening again!..It was frustrating cuz HE was the one who was insecure and I was the one suffering! Nope, never doing ANYTHING for a guy because of his idiotic nature.
Hmmm, no more sob stories from my end now!....Love my life and am living it to the fullest!
P.S: Going to Florence this coming weekend for 3 days!
Thursday, March 1, 2007
Random...
My first blog ever. It's called random cuz i know even if i 'plan' on writing about somethin, it's going to turn out really random. For starters, here's a DISCLAIMER:
I'm no writer. never been good at it. it's just for me to unwind and i don't care about my punctuations or spellings...not that they're bad but yea, at times i mess up big time and yea, I have a tendency of makin up my own words.
ME: As for me, I'm impulsive, impatient, materialistic, dramatic, full of life, hardcore party animal, practical, outspoken, blunt, talkative, spoilt and pampered, very independent, nonjudgmental.
Everything for me is has to be black or white. I'm not kidding...whether its food, people or things...no place for anything in between so either i love it or i hate it.
Why am i home on a saturday night?
Well, Last night was probably the worst night of my life!..still not recovered from it. We went out, i was hammered and blacked out...so i dont remember quite a few things (thank god for that) and what i remember, i wish didn't. So here it is...we go out, get drunk, party hard and guess what i do? i went out for a smoke and left the place without telling my friends...started walking home when i didn't know the way, got lost and 2 of my friends called me (they were home) cuz people were looking for me n i told them i didnt know where i was. So, at 5:00 in the morning they took a cab n went out looking for me on the streets of Milan...without my jacket...i was jus waiting on the main road for them. It's a miracle that i am here right now..sitting and writing this..cuz i could've been raped or killed or anything! So, i need to take a break today. Drinking, I'm definitely quitting for sometime cuz i don't think it's worth it and i have done that before. I'm bad with that cuz i don't know myself when im drinking...one minute im absolutely fine and the next im totally out.
Phew! thats out...
I'm no writer. never been good at it. it's just for me to unwind and i don't care about my punctuations or spellings...not that they're bad but yea, at times i mess up big time and yea, I have a tendency of makin up my own words.
ME: As for me, I'm impulsive, impatient, materialistic, dramatic, full of life, hardcore party animal, practical, outspoken, blunt, talkative, spoilt and pampered, very independent, nonjudgmental.
Everything for me is has to be black or white. I'm not kidding...whether its food, people or things...no place for anything in between so either i love it or i hate it.
Why am i home on a saturday night?
Well, Last night was probably the worst night of my life!..still not recovered from it. We went out, i was hammered and blacked out...so i dont remember quite a few things (thank god for that) and what i remember, i wish didn't. So here it is...we go out, get drunk, party hard and guess what i do? i went out for a smoke and left the place without telling my friends...started walking home when i didn't know the way, got lost and 2 of my friends called me (they were home) cuz people were looking for me n i told them i didnt know where i was. So, at 5:00 in the morning they took a cab n went out looking for me on the streets of Milan...without my jacket...i was jus waiting on the main road for them. It's a miracle that i am here right now..sitting and writing this..cuz i could've been raped or killed or anything! So, i need to take a break today. Drinking, I'm definitely quitting for sometime cuz i don't think it's worth it and i have done that before. I'm bad with that cuz i don't know myself when im drinking...one minute im absolutely fine and the next im totally out.
Phew! thats out...
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